you're feeding your ego with what you can see outside

OLIPA VITTU PÄIVÄ =)))
just had to get that out. 9 hrs and fuck i'm so dead. why the fuck thursdays must be the beginning of weekend hectics ? gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. and i fucking was right to think that atleast one machine will blow up while i'm alone there ! FUCKING RIGHT. today's food saldo is two portions of cheesemacaronistuff, 2 cheeseburgers, apple... bah and it wasn't too much at all. to make this work thing even more cheery... one of my co-workers called in sick, so me and pellikka are pulling a heavy friday night tomorrow, and my saturday's shift got 3 hrs longer. lovely.
but. tomorrow i have a early rise. we're off to fleamarket hopping with nora. can't wait ^^ just hope the weather is decent. like sunshine, maybe ? and on saturday, after i've died a thousand deaths at work (not) we're off to this 80s party. my brains are overflowing already with thoughts and ideas abt what i'm gonna wear, how i'm gonna do my hair and maybe makeup. too bad that i dyed my hair already, the peroxide blonde would've been ideal. but i'll live. because it's FUCKING 80S PARTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH ! i've been drooling over one for over 2 years now, and that's fucking too long. because 80s is love.
also. it appears i can't afford to go to kotka at all this month. it's gonna have to wait 'till next payday. this kinda sucks, because i miss filly and the kitties and sloughi. but well. i'll live :D i'll just work hard and go riding with takku. heehehee that's another thing i can hardly wait ! i'm going to hop on that horse's back on sunday *__* and after that i'm probably gonna go and have a ride with her every wednesday and friday. bhihbibhibhi forestridinggg<3 wants !

now. i should hop hop and go to lilluskel to the tub and soak myself clean. would sooth my sore muscles maybe.

cause i found a way to steal the sun from the sky

the day before yesterday was random. i had a day off, but instead of lagging around, well i headed to paplari to meet mims. the idea was just to lagg with her and maybe think about doing something to my hair. and what happened? my hair is now some really random color. it seems different in every type of light and i'm not sure yet what i think of it :D okay, i like it. i needed the change. having the same blonde hair for what, 4 months ? that's so not my cup of tea.
ah fuck time flies. i'm having my first ever day shift alone at work. 3 hrs to survive alone. booh. i'm so fucking sure that the machines decide to explode or something just as stupid. i'm fucking sure. damn i need to crab something to eat and start running. hopefully i'll live through these hours.

let me introduce you to the characters in the show

yesterday was a movie day. aka went to see that damn twilight finally with my girl. i'm actually surprised, it didn't suck so much at all. but i still don't understand why the fuck people are so hyped about it. edward cullen seemed so retarded with all that "ohimsomysteriousandevilvampire" eyebrow crunching he did and jazz. and no, he ain't hot. there's just nothing vampire-like about that guy. the evil james was sooooo much hotter *drools* too bad the bad guys always die. in the cullen family well, carlisle was the most vampireish. he was hot too. bella was annoying. yeah. but still, i could watch that movie again. i did get some bad looks in there when i lolled at edward :D i guess i still really laugh out so loud.
the other movie we saw was milk. a true story about harvey milk, this gay guy who decided to fight for the rights of gay people, back in 70s, and was shot in the end... i really recommend that. i have always known that straight-as-an-arrow people can be terrible but it really surprised me how awful some of the people were in that story. i wonder if that bitch anita still lives, or has someone blown her brains out already. she totally would deserve that. she's fucking sick. fucking disgusting.
but watching milk made me miss pride week, and drool even more over the thought of going to san fransisco. just think about it, spending the pride week there. how fucking awesome would that be. wish i had some magical bank accounts holding tons of money. i'd buy the flight tickets immediately. i fucking wanna go.
other than the movies. i bought a new scarf from carlings. had been in need for that for ages. and helsinki still is butt ugly. and the air there is just so.. icky. felt wonderful to get back to vantaa and really breath. amazing what a few miles can do.

AND ! a new little rattie is coming home in a week or so ! or actually maybe in 2 weeks since i won't be in town when the baby will be "up for crabs" so to say. but stiiiiil *__*

and.. bloogh. i don't know. i lost my train of thought. blaa.

yeah, i get it, you're an outcast

over a week has passed since shinedown ! and i haven't written anything. damn.
negays. the gig. even thought i've read tons of people saying that it sucked, that they couldn't hear brent's singing, the crowd was dead (it was... mostly), well screw them ! i fucking loved that gig, and i'd go there ten times again ! i don't understand why people complain they didn't hear the singing. i heard brent loud and clear thorough the show, except for few moment when the crowd around me got too loud (not too loud in a bad way, no no). sure i admit the crowd was really stoic if comparing to most of the gigs i've been to but when you got closer to the stage, that's where the people where more alive. i moshed, jumped, sang, shouted and fucking was having so much fun there. i don't understand why peeps whine so much. shinedown fucking rocked ! i totally fell in love with that band and i can't wait to see them again (i read somewhere they might be coming back in the summer, for some festival, and if not, then in the autumn<3). come back soon guys...
and now i'm royally sick again. still. yeah, still is the right word. i have been sick since december, for fucks sake. this sucks major ass. and i'm deadly afraid i'll get fired because i'm sick so often... well really, if i do get fired, well then that's that. something will always come up.
oh and fucking yay. i just might be getting to see metallica this summer ! sonisphere is this new hard rock festival thingy that tours atleast europe and miiitallicaaa is headlining that thing *__*<3 and they have a show scheduled to 25th of july, in pori. tickets come on sale on monday next week. they cost a ton but i fucking have to have that. i fucking want to see metallica. like, really.
ah fuck. i really need to go to sleep. i haven't slept a single full night since wednesday last week... just a few crappy hours here and there. sucks.