i feel like i wouldn't like me if i met me

life is NOT hell atm. work is good, i'm not that sick anymore, we got some things talked through. i like it right now.
today i'm having a day off. the bosses are having this end-of-season-meeting somewhere and no-one is at evening service today. 3 day weekend. sleeping a little later than usual was very very welcome. now i should get my ass up from this floor, go do the dishes (kitchen is abt to explode...), freshen my self up a little and maybe head to visit some shops and fleamarkets and second hand shops. i really need new pants, jacket and jeans... and maybe shoes. i'm just so cheap i don't want to pay too much so finding them is hard... and i'm also too lazy to run through million places in one day or even a week. maybe tomorrow. i don't KNOW.
yesterday mims cut mu hair and my girl's too. goody good again. looking like a human is always nice xD

... ugh i eat too much nuts these days...

ok my brains are failing me again.

we may rise and fall, but in the end we meet our fate together

still no salary. woohoo. and i saw mattila today couple of times, but he was either having a sales conversation or something as important on phone, or running to a meeting inside the office. and then when the meeting ended he flew out of the door before i could catch him. fooock. maybe i should call him, that should work xD
eemeli got the job ! hail and gongrats to him but it's still sorta sad that he leaves. if his meeting goes well tomorrow, he will start the job almost immediately and will never return to evening serviceeee ;____; then i'll be all alone with the ÄIJÄT and our new guy, tomppa. he listens to suomi rap... *death* ......... ok yeah. he's not that bad. but still, we seem to have nothing to talk about or in common. we just don't click, you know. i get along with eemeli and i got along with juho, ari and santtu too. and hugo x)) too bad they're all gone or leaving. fock. just gotta live with the fact that work isn't going to be so social anymore :D if only i'd just get that salaryyy........

i really need to take a shower now. and then off to visit the shop my girl is working at today. she ordered so. and she also told me to buy mysli and yoghurt. hoho. damn i have no munny. and no food. except that saaristolais leipä. damn it's good. but i can't live solely on that. and fuck. i really need the salary this week. need to get to kotkaaaaaa. fillyyyy oh how fucking much i miss her ;___;<3333333