dare you, dare you, double dare you

i NEVER wanna move again... ok, i do, but then i will fucking have near zero amount of stuff. ..... and today i had a job interview to this moving company xD buahahah.
BUT ANYGAYS. we are fucking home now ! this place is a royal mess but we'll get there. some damn glorious day. oh btw, i found out the reason why no one's ever heard of this as i went through the hugeass information pdf thingy abt this place: THIS IS A FUCKING COMMUNITY. seriously, these few housecomplexes form this community and it's a fucking tight one. plus this community is christian.... shit, what have we done ??? XD and this place also feels so much like silent hill that it's not even possible. the sun is shining but still you can almost hear the sirens go off and darkness starting to fall. plus our fridge sounds like those childlike stretchy faced creatures in the movie, you know the sound they make before they start to scream. buahahha. this is nice.

yes, as i was saying. i'm (we're) off to go through some shops now. trying to find some kinkyness ahoy colored bulbs for our lamps :D and i'm desperate for that leatherjacket..... and shoes....

i think i'll have a doughnut now.

an understanding, it's impossible

i finally got to finish reading this fic ---> Silent Hill (scroll down a few entries, it's there) and damn i loved it. the author had finished it too, since i last checked the page. i liked her writing a lot... makes me want to drown in to a world that's not even there. it would be so much easier just to try and keep going, killing everything that comes in your way, constantly fighting to stay alive and make it to the next day.

i decided to try with the pills again. can't take the pressure on/in my chest anymore. it's almost like i feel too much and my body just can't cope with it. i feel like i need to move and do things, or else i'll choke or just simply crumble down in pieces.

off for now, to smoke and well, maybe do some push ups and stuff.