acting like a maniac

so to add to this all shit my travel card runs out of paid time TODAY. no ticket tomorrow. and that's just when i'd need it the most. if i get a fucking ticket i swear i'm fucking gonna start crying. i'm just so fucking tired of all this shit trashin my head.
fuck, i just wanna get drunk. or atleast drink some.


plus i still wanna get drunk.
plus i'm fucking fat. need desperately to do something about this. i disgust myself.

i need a change. a major one.